Okay, I Really Am Sick

And not in a good way sick. I think there is literally something wrong with me for finding this so damn hot and just pure fucking sex.

I'm talking about the "She's Gone" MV from the Shine a Light DVD. Oh, I know you've all seen it. And I know you all thought it was strangely hot too, which makes you just as fucked up in the head as I am right now.

I really am not digging the whole The Cure hairstyle he has going on, but for the sake of the atmosphere of the video, it works beautifully. Do I want to see him look like that in public? Uh, hell no. But I will fan girl a decent amount over it, because it adds to the whole bat-shit insane theme. And let me just say ... I don't necessarily find smoking attractive, but I'm not one of those who completely dismisses someone because they smoke. It isn't really a major factor to me.

In all honesty, I have never ever EVER been slightly turned on by seeing a dude light up. Until now.

Especially all the smoke clouds he blew out ... why that's so sexy is beyond me.

Of course, Master GD isn't just any ordinary dude on the street. I said I hated Asian men with blonde hair, then I wanted him to dye his hair back to blonde. Rules don't apply to him. He knows this. Not just my rules. Any girl's or gay man's rules. He is the exception to everything. And this is exactly how he can get away with making me feel completely all-sorts of screwed up.

If you haven't seen it yet but know what "She's Gone" is about, then pretty much think The Shining meets Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde with a little bit of Johnny Depp circa Sleepy Hollow, and then with the ending of "She's Gone."

You know how the girls in horror movies run ridiculously fast and the killer just walks so slow behind them yet somehow seems to catch up to their new victim? He does that, stalking her through a maze, while looking incredibly demented, like he should be wearing a straight jacket and running into a padded wall repeatedly.

Oh, and then he pulls a knife out of his coat. Yeah ... that should actually kind of freak me out but it doesn't. And when he runs the blade underneath his lips ... yeah, still doesn't freak me out.

I'm so all sorts of screwed up. I need therapy. Really, this is just wrong on so many levels. That demented look should not be a turn on for me. What the fuck is this about? Am I the only one feeling this way? Feeling like you should be attracted to it because it's G-Dragon and the man can do no wrong and everything he does exudes sex, but at the same time you shouldn't be attracted to it because he's a fucking murderer who gets off on stalking pretty girls through a maze and then stabbing them?

And if you missed the really quick, insanely creepy, I-will-probably-legitimately-have-nightmares-from-this smile he gave while covered in spattered blood, here it is:

Seriously, what's wrong with me?

Click here to watch the "She's Gone" MV. Hurry up before it gets removed from YouTube!

For the record, I'm definitely not into the whole kinky-shit-with-potential-weapons kind of sex. No way. Call me a prude, but there will never ever be a knife in my bedroom. Fuck that.

TKPA